Usch
Idag är en sån dag som märks med ordet VÄRDELÖS stort och tydligt. Som att det står i pannan på mig och jag orkar inte. Igår somnade jag vid sju på kvällen, vaknade idag vid tio, värdelöst. Jag gillar inte att sova, även det är värdelöst. Att inte göra nånting och bara ligga där och inte kunna styra över sig själv på något som helst sett, inte kunna styra över sina rörelser, impulser, tankar och drömmar. Jag drömde något som verkade vara i en evighet, orkar inte berätta hela då även det skulle ta en evighet men hade iaf s&m sex med Stellan Skarsgård, fast han såg ut som en blandning mellan Johnny Depp och Citte. Han skar mig med en nål på armen och blodet flöt ut överallt men sjönk inte in i lakanen. Ibland förstår jag inte mig själv.
Som ni förstår är jag hemma från skolan idag, borde plugga nu men det gör jag inte. Ovanligt. Jag har verligen ingen lust med något just nu, förutom att ligga omsluten i någons armar. Med denna någon menar jag en viss person men det spelar ingen roll för det kommer ändå aldrig bli så. Usch.
Som ni förstår är jag hemma från skolan idag, borde plugga nu men det gör jag inte. Ovanligt. Jag har verligen ingen lust med något just nu, förutom att ligga omsluten i någons armar. Med denna någon menar jag en viss person men det spelar ingen roll för det kommer ändå aldrig bli så. Usch.
Hinder - Better than me
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
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